Glamorous and geeky

  What a freaking day it has been. What i though was a simple dr visit for my uti and possible kidney infection turned out to be a day spent in the emergency room for me. Just fantastic. I will link to my outfit at the bottom of this post and possibly before the rest of the post. Tirgger warning, talking blood, kidneys, hospital stuff and reflux. JavaScript is currently disabled in this browser. Reactivate it to view this content. I started to show symptoms last Thursday. Uti have pretty distinctive symptoms. Constant urge to go tothe bathroom, pain when you do go , pain in the groin and fatigue. For my normal uti Imshould be able to bounce back on my own. With some azo and stuff, i figured i was ok. But then, by Saturday it was way worse. Like 100 times worse. Then Sunday I was like, "i am going to the doctor.......tomorrow." Then I went to the doctor and well, my kidneys were worse feeling. I got a shot of antibiotics then sent to the ER. I got there and they needed a s...

First I want to talk about this Tarot card tee I bought from a fellow creator on Instagram Juniperfoxx, her account is all about fox rescue and life with foxes and her other family members ! A opossum, some lizards, a dog, and rescues of other animals. Juniper is the queen or empress of it all . A very opinionated little lady (check out their gram here !) they have a shop to buy fox and opossum apparel and you can help support them! Now on to the Trichotillomania. Such a lovely condition to have. I am being a sarcastic shit with that one. It sucks, and it has been so bad lately. I don’t know if it is because the stress from being studying when I can and feeling like I never have time for it! Or! Is it my health and stressing from that? Or my kids driving me crazy and I never get time alone.From anyone in the house. Or is it COVID stress? I don’t want to pull out my hair because I had bald patches now. And I feel so ugly. The wigs help me but the minute they come off the hair pulling st...

  It took me a lot to get out and take these photos with this super simplistic outfit on. A lot. I had a lot in my mind going against me. Some thinned out and maybe a bald patch from my hair loss and trichotillomania and the flabby tummy from having a second child and having medicines cause weight issues. It was all going against my favor , all of it. In fact I actually started to hate and I mean really hate cropped tops. Because in my mind someone with my body and my age shouldn't wear them. I mean who do I think I am? I am no Giselle and I am no Adriana nope . And certainly not Naiomi. But then i saw other influencers and bloggers share the body positivity. And it is empowering. Truly. But i just can not stop looking at the flaws. Flaws I caused by yanking my hair all the time. And the flabby flaws that were caused by carrying my little and then the meds that followed. My eating disorder tries to speak up and i have to force her away. Ugh, I wasn't wanting this post to b...

So, I made a huge decision today. Well, not today actually, it was a bit ago. When I started going on antibiotics every couple of weeks for my kidneys and bladder and sinuses that is when I decided. I decided to quit the PILL . Yes, I wanted to take more control of my birth control and after a lot of talk with my obeys  we both felt an IUD would be the best option. You see, I have been on one form of the pill or birth control since I was a teen, for unusual periods and bad Cycles and cramps. I tried the Nueva ring before , hated it. And then depo and orsythia was a huge mistake. The side effects were the worst I have ever been through and I went back to orthotricyclin. My tried and true bcp. But,one thing about bcp is when you go on antibiotics it stops working and with anIUD you don’t have to worry about it. Or at least with Paraguard you don’t.  shop: Now there are somethings to think about when getting paraguard. And 1st discuss it with your doctor and ask lots of question...