Glamorous and geeky

 Today, I was doing laundry and found a newer dress of mine from Halara, it is a athleisure dress, with built in shorts and shelf bra. A pretty darn comfy dress and one you can definitely chase after your kids or pets in. But, something happened today that involved me looking in the mirror and going ew. I saw how I looked in it. I didn't like what I saw. I didn't like who I saw in the mirror. Which was me. I did not like how I looked in the dress. I didn't like how I looked at all. I did not like the person I was seeing in that dress in that moment.  No. So, here is the thing. I am a recovering anorexic. I have body dysmorphia. I have OCD, literally I do, and this is on top of my other mental stuff. Stuff like BPD1, autism, adhd, dyslexia, I believe I have dyscalcia, which is why I am shit at math, no matter how it is taught to me. I am shit at it. Which is why of all the subjects I homeschool my older son with, math is the one I hire my kid a tutor for. The OCD is presente...

Hi there friends I am so excited to share my new green synthetic w ig and also wanted to share some more insight on living with Trichotillomania. And well what you shouldn’t say to someone suffering with this. If you can give me a moment of your time.   And as usual if you want to know and purchase what I am wearing I will do a scrolling bar below this and at the end of the post.    JavaScript is currently disabled in this browser. Reactivate it to view this content. So having an illness like trichotillomania is rough. It is rough on the one suffering and is rough on friends and family. But sometimes, even the most well meaning family or friends . Ok even well meaning strangers.They will say things that just are not any help. Or it makes the puller feel worse. It helps no one. So what not to say? One thing I can not stand is being told to flat out "stop doing that!" It adds more stress much more stress.And it adds the element of shame. Which sucks! what to say i...

Christmas Snuggles and Melted Kisses Liquid Lipstick Set • Too Faced • $25 Tweed Fleming Small Convertible Bag • $0 Women's Valerie City Ankle Bootie - A New DayTM • A New Day • $34.99 Women's Fa La La La Short Sleeve Graphic T-Shirt - • Grayson Threads • $8 Zoe+Liv Women's Red and Green Christmas Light Leggings - Black • $14.99 SUGARFIX by BaubleBar Christmas Lights Clip • $12.99 So  7 days. I have to wear a heart monitor or event monitor for 7 days. Fun times.  My cardiologist wants me to wear one  for 7 days, which doesn’t seem too bad for most. But, before in the past  the monitor was big and bulky. They had many sensors and wires . But, this new one it is small. It is one sensor and sits in the middle of your chest. Pretty nice I think.  So after 7 days  I mail it back and then wait until my follow up for the ever unchanging “ it looks normal” the event monitors are always normal. Always does that, without fail. Tilt table is usually...

First I want to talk about this Tarot card tee I bought from a fellow creator on Instagram Juniperfoxx, her account is all about fox rescue and life with foxes and her other family members ! A opossum, some lizards, a dog, and rescues of other animals. Juniper is the queen or empress of it all . A very opinionated little lady (check out their gram here !) they have a shop to buy fox and opossum apparel and you can help support them! Now on to the Trichotillomania. Such a lovely condition to have. I am being a sarcastic shit with that one. It sucks, and it has been so bad lately. I don’t know if it is because the stress from being studying when I can and feeling like I never have time for it! Or! Is it my health and stressing from that? Or my kids driving me crazy and I never get time alone.From anyone in the house. Or is it COVID stress? I don’t want to pull out my hair because I had bald patches now. And I feel so ugly. The wigs help me but the minute they come off the hair pulling st...