Glamorous and geeky

 You know there are days where I dress one way, the alt/gothic fairy that I am. OR others where I wear over the top dresses. Often getting asked when I do venture out into the wilds, if there is a Renn Faire around. Or is there a comic con or something. Which no, I just dress this way as my normal.  It can get awkward. Especially when you see no one Dressed anywhere near how you do. Like in the slightest. Growing up always wanted to wear the prettiest of dresses. And I was able to wear them except at special  occasions. And I was very much the punk/goth girl as I got older. And getting made fun of in high school. And else where, made it hard for me to enjoy it. And so I started to dress as others wanted. Not for me, which I talk about a lot. Because GODS damned it is exhausting constantly trying to fit in. Constantly trying to be a part of the collective. But all the while you do not at all. Because, you are not like them at all. I am happiest when dressed how I want and ...

 So, I have concussion syndrome. It sucks that I have to not only navigate this TBI(traumatic brain injury) but also Neuropathy. And recently I had a doctor’s appointment from hell. This was not in part the doctor’s fault but the staff. Yeah, the staff made my appointment go from ok to down right uncomfortable.  How did this happen? Well let me tell you. The appointment started this way, I went in to the appointment with anxiety and stress. I was also sick. I was masked. And whenever I meet new people, like the front desk lady, I always now warn people about my TBI and how it affects my speech. Because the judgement you get from people when you talk and sound like I do. She shared with me about her family and how someone in her family has similar issues. Things were going good until she mentioned one thing. GOD. UGH. Yes, she said “I believe in god and I know you do too!” I chuckled uncomfortably because it was super uncomfortable. And she said “if you don’t know god, you shou...

Hi there friends I am so excited to share my new green synthetic w ig and also wanted to share some more insight on living with Trichotillomania. And well what you shouldn’t say to someone suffering with this. If you can give me a moment of your time.   And as usual if you want to know and purchase what I am wearing I will do a scrolling bar below this and at the end of the post.    JavaScript is currently disabled in this browser. Reactivate it to view this content. So having an illness like trichotillomania is rough. It is rough on the one suffering and is rough on friends and family. But sometimes, even the most well meaning family or friends . Ok even well meaning strangers.They will say things that just are not any help. Or it makes the puller feel worse. It helps no one. So what not to say? One thing I can not stand is being told to flat out "stop doing that!" It adds more stress much more stress.And it adds the element of shame. Which sucks! what to say i...

Christmas Snuggles and Melted Kisses Liquid Lipstick Set • Too Faced • $25 Tweed Fleming Small Convertible Bag • $0 Women's Valerie City Ankle Bootie - A New DayTM • A New Day • $34.99 Women's Fa La La La Short Sleeve Graphic T-Shirt - • Grayson Threads • $8 Zoe+Liv Women's Red and Green Christmas Light Leggings - Black • $14.99 SUGARFIX by BaubleBar Christmas Lights Clip • $12.99 So  7 days. I have to wear a heart monitor or event monitor for 7 days. Fun times.  My cardiologist wants me to wear one  for 7 days, which doesn’t seem too bad for most. But, before in the past  the monitor was big and bulky. They had many sensors and wires . But, this new one it is small. It is one sensor and sits in the middle of your chest. Pretty nice I think.  So after 7 days  I mail it back and then wait until my follow up for the ever unchanging “ it looks normal” the event monitors are always normal. Always does that, without fail. Tilt table is usually...

First I want to talk about this Tarot card tee I bought from a fellow creator on Instagram Juniperfoxx, her account is all about fox rescue and life with foxes and her other family members ! A opossum, some lizards, a dog, and rescues of other animals. Juniper is the queen or empress of it all . A very opinionated little lady (check out their gram here !) they have a shop to buy fox and opossum apparel and you can help support them! Now on to the Trichotillomania. Such a lovely condition to have. I am being a sarcastic shit with that one. It sucks, and it has been so bad lately. I don’t know if it is because the stress from being studying when I can and feeling like I never have time for it! Or! Is it my health and stressing from that? Or my kids driving me crazy and I never get time alone.From anyone in the house. Or is it COVID stress? I don’t want to pull out my hair because I had bald patches now. And I feel so ugly. The wigs help me but the minute they come off the hair pulling st...