Eclectic style some days I dress one way and others another.

 You know there are days where I dress one way, the alt/gothic fairy that I am. OR others where I wear over the top dresses. Often getting asked when I do venture out into the wilds, if there is a Renn Faire around. Or is there a comic con or something. Which no, I just dress this way as my normal. 

It can get awkward. Especially when you see no one Dressed anywhere near how you do. Like in the slightest. Growing up always wanted to wear the prettiest of dresses. And I was able to wear them except at special  occasions. And I was very much the punk/goth girl as I got older. And getting made fun of in high school. And else where, made it hard for me to enjoy it. And so I started to dress as others wanted. Not for me, which I talk about a lot. Because GODS damned it is exhausting constantly trying to fit in. Constantly trying to be a part of the collective. But all the while you do not at all. Because, you are not like them at all. I am happiest when dressed how I want and not how others want. To many people I should look like I just fell out of a Sears or Jc Penny catalogue. Like I need to wear all the beige and because I am also 40 I am apparently supposed to fade away. BE a part of the background. Not stand out.

Done with that. Bright blue and green hair makeup how I want. Not the do what others want me to be. Those closest to me, may not like it. But, right now, how things are? I will be who I WANT. Not what they want. 

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