Glamorous and geeky

 I have been feeling like a bit of a crisis, like how do I want dress? Do I want to be over the top? Do I want to express myself? I know how I want to dress, I know how I want to be. But then I look at the mirror and hate how things look on me. I hate my body so much. And it is so hard to get things exercise wise done right now with my brain being a mess and neuropathy. I decided I need to get back into 3 mile walks daily again. It is not really too hard to do. And it only takes an hour of my time. That is time I need to get to doing what I need to get myself back into some shape. Not to the extreme that my mind wants, the eating disorder is a nightmare. I have to be careful. So outfits Top // pants // shoes // belt // stockings // necklace I have been wearing compression stockings again for my neuropathy top // dress // shoes // necklace

 I am one who loves to sew, loves it. I adore making things like costumes and dresses. I first actually got into cosplay years ago. Well a long ass time ago to be quite honest. Went to one of my first cons, and it was so uncomfortable how grabby some dudes were, that I never went back. Until recently, I really want to go. They look like such fun and Dragon Con is on the top of my list after doing something local like Mega Con in Orlando, FL. I am working on Orin the Red, a cosplay that fingers crossed will be done for Halloween.  Hoping because it is a 3d printed armor, that we are putting a lot of work into. I say we, because it is my husband and I making it. He does the 3d print and I do all the rest. The painting, the shaping, the wig, the makeup, the bodysuit painting, the figuring out how to make it wearable. The thing about cosplay is making the impossible, possible. That is the case for a lot of cosplay, and Orin the Red is definitely not the exception. Trying to make the arms w

  I have been wanting to make my own strawberry dress since I first laid eyes on one while browsing through instagram. It was a beautiful Matoshi dress. And while I have expensive Selkie dresses, It wasn't a a dress I wanted to spend that much on. I liked it but it didn't curl the toes as much as the selkies do.  Then I saw the sequin strawberries on some mesh at Joann's fabrics and had to have it. SO, I went home and ordered it. Along with some bright red silk satin.. I don't have a serger, which is why working with satins and chiffon or organza is a pain in my royal ass. I hate it. The shit frays, and even with a backwards stitch, it isn't as clean as a serger would be. And let me remind you that I am struggling with my current Singer machine. I will never buy a damn Singer ever again. Brother, will be my next machine and serger. NEVER BUY THE SINGER HEAVY DUTY 4011, it is a piece of shit. it eats thread, you spend ore time fixing the machine than sewing. You spen

 I have had this fabric I made on Spoonflower.com for a while now. And I wasn’t sure what I was going to do with it. I also have some other fabric from there I want to use up. But this dress was one I was wanting to get done. A corseted dress is what I did, and forgot the zipper. Which was a minor inconvenience for me. Getting it off was a nightmare, I just need to add a small hidden zipper and a few more boning channels on the dress. Sewing stuff is a hobby of mine that I really do enjoy.  The black satin for this silly project of mine was from Joann’s fabric. The velvet ribbon from Amazon. I got the pattern for the top of dress is from a simplicity pattern that was designed by American Duchess, The skirt is my own draping. I do love draping fabric.  It was sewn a lot by hand because of the boning an my sewing machine was not wanting to work right, I broke several sewing machine needles. I finished the dress but there is some corrections needed. And knowing me, I will probably remake

 As some know, if you follow along on Threads, TikTok, and instagram, you may already know that I slipped and fell in the beginning of November. I slipped on a Christmas tinsel placemat that my son left on the floor. I still can’t remember what I was going to do, or what I was doing before the fall. I slipped on the placemat, I didn’t see it, and fell. I hit the back of my head on the floor. My right shoulder went through a Rubbermaid container and broke my fall some. Still by the end of the day, I was in serious pain. I couldn’t remember my name, couldn’t remember dates, it was horrible. The pain. And here I am now in April, suffering from Concussion Syndrome. The brain trauma still very much a present part of my life. I slur still at times, have difficulty talking, headaches, dizziness, nausea at moments, migraines, sensitivity to light and certain sounds. I already had an issue with sounds but now it is bad.  I have decided to, in my who knows what kind of wisdom trying the Keto die

 So, I have concussion syndrome. It sucks that I have to not only navigate this TBI(traumatic brain injury) but also Neuropathy. And recently I had a doctor’s appointment from hell. This was not in part the doctor’s fault but the staff. Yeah, the staff made my appointment go from ok to down right uncomfortable.  How did this happen? Well let me tell you. The appointment started this way, I went in to the appointment with anxiety and stress. I was also sick. I was masked. And whenever I meet new people, like the front desk lady, I always now warn people about my TBI and how it affects my speech. Because the judgement you get from people when you talk and sound like I do. She shared with me about her family and how someone in her family has similar issues. Things were going good until she mentioned one thing. GOD. UGH. Yes, she said “I believe in god and I know you do too!” I chuckled uncomfortably because it was super uncomfortable. And she said “if you don’t know god, you should. Becau