So, I went back to the doctor who initially said I was better.The initial tests came back for a uti as negative. But they would still send out for cultures. I was feeling great about that, although I still had discomfort. I put it off as all in my head for the time being. Two days later or not even, the bladder infection was back full force. I looked like garbage on Sunday. And then I figured I would call the doctor back to tell them how I was feeling and make an appointment. I didn’t get the chance. They called and told me the cultures came back with the uti , the infection was still there. And this whole thing has been since last Wednesday. Here we are Monday and I feel awful and the pains are back but not as intense.
How I realize that it is now Tuesday. But I still feel the same. More pains,discomfort. The bloated feeling. I hate it!
And the antibiotics make me sick. I’m feeling all sorts of ways. I know this post does have much value in things except an update for why posting is all over the place.
Today, I was doing laundry and found a newer dress of mine from Halara, it is a athleisure dress, with built in shorts and shelf bra. A pretty darn comfy dress and one you can definitely chase after your kids or pets in. But, something happened today that involved me looking in the mirror and going ew. I saw how I looked in it. I didn't like what I saw. I didn't like who I saw in the mirror. Which was me. I did not like how I looked in the dress. I didn't like how I looked at all. I did not like the person I was seeing in that dress in that moment. No. So, here is the thing. I am a recovering anorexic. I have body dysmorphia. I have OCD, literally I do, and this is on top of my other mental stuff. Stuff like BPD1, autism, adhd, dyslexia, I believe I have dyscalcia, which is why I am shit at math, no matter how it is taught to me. I am shit at it. Which is why of all the subjects I homeschool my older son with, math is the one I hire my kid a tutor for. The OCD is presente...
I am one who loves to sew, loves it. I adore making things like costumes and dresses. I first actually got into cosplay years ago. Well a long ass time ago to be quite honest. Went to one of my first cons, and it was so uncomfortable how grabby some dudes were, that I never went back. Until recently, I really want to go. They look like such fun and Dragon Con is on the top of my list after doing something local like Mega Con in Orlando, FL. I am working on Orin the Red, a cosplay that fingers crossed will be done for Halloween. Hoping because it is a 3d printed armor, that we are putting a lot of work into. I say we, because it is my husband and I making it. He does the 3d print and I do all the rest. The painting, the shaping, the wig, the makeup, the bodysuit painting, the figuring out how to make it wearable. The thing about cosplay is making the impossible, possible. That is the case for a lot of cosplay, and Orin the Red is definitely not the exception. Trying to make t...
Hello friends and void. OUTFIT from the other day. tee // skirt // stocking compressio n// o ver stockings // I definitely feel as though I am screaming into the void whenever I post something. Whether here or on my social media. Especially on the social media pages. I feel like I am just talking into or yelling into nothingness. You know, the void. It can be a bit of a mood killer when that happens. As there is nothing commenting back. It seems only the super attractive or those posting more rage bait style or engagement bait style posts get any kind of follow. I am none of those things. And I refuse to do engagement bait. How to spot them? Rage bait doesn't necessarily have to be in your face with the rage. It can be something small, like a zipper on the back of the dress not zipped up all the way on purpose. Engagement bait? They ask things like "hey cosplayers, show me your most recent cosplays!"or they will say " Show me your PETS!" and they never respo...
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