Wearing Adeam. #ootd and life with Trichotillomania lately

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I saw this dress when I was lookin for something to rent on RENT THE RUNWAY . I have been renting ball gowns with many orders because it is fun to dress in this stuff with no where to go. This dress caught my eye initially because of the harness it had for a belt. BUT, there was no belt included with it. So, I never got to enjoy the dress in it's complete entirety. Which sucks. 

Even with all of that I still had a blast wearing the dress. It was flowy! And fun to wear! I just kind of wished I wore a wig instead of my natural hair. As it is frizzing up the size of Montana and looks horrible with the extensions since they do not frizz up like my real hair.I am so overly critical of myself and it really is hard not to be. It was a bad hair day .








I have been living In my wigs. My trichotillomania has been bad. Today has been bad and that day it was too. When you have this disorder it really takes its toll on you. The wigs help and I love them , but I wanted to go without and the result were bad. The never ending cycle. Hair pulling from anxiety and stress , my stemming at it’s worst, and then stress and depression from pulling so you pull more. And bite your nails. I am trying so hard! Trying to stop and correct the behavior, but feel like a failure.
It sucks. 
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